my band's myspace, yo! includes our DEMOS!

I am so fucking pissed. Why does the world always steal all of my favorite bands? First The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, then the Audition, and now Paramore? Oh, for god's sake, not Paramore!

I'm sick of going to shows and seeing a bunch of little fourteen year old girl's wearing matching 'I heart Brendon Urie' t-shirts, or something more fitting for each specific show. These little posers successfully push me out of the way, even though I've been there for fucking hours, and they've just arrived, but I find it hard to argue with anyone, none-the-less someone wearing bright baby-blue eyeshadow. Then, when the show actually starts, and the crowd gets starts crushing them, and they get thrown off their feet, they start crying. and I have to help them out.


ten dollars says, the Plain White T's are next.




NEW SONG

Will you forget
so you can live again?
I need to know
can you handle this?

Don't hold back
You've got something to say
Why are you holding back on me
I see you
I have something to say....

Let me finish this sentence
before you  leave again
I need to know
if you understand
I didn't ask for this
I didn't ask to be pulled off the floor

Don't hold back
You've got something to say
Why are you holding back on me
I see you
I have something to say....

I didn't ask for this
I didn't ask to be pulled off the floor
but now that it's through,
there's nothing I want more

Don't hold back
You've got something to say
Why are you holding back on me
I see you
I have something to say....

If you ran
away now
would you come
back around?

I like
where we are
when we drive
in your car
I like
where we are
here

Cause our lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
yes our lips can touch
here

Where you are the one, the one
that lies close to me
whispers, 'hello', I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no other place to be
but here in your arms

I like
where you sleep
when you sleep
next to me
I like
where you sleep
here

Cause our lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
yes our lips can touch
here

Where you are the one, the one
that lies close to me
whispers, 'hello', I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no other place to be
but here in your arms

I said, so look closely there might be something you'd like. what's it like?
It's been months- who knows if I can get this right- what's it like?

what's it feel like to be a ghost?

and then you said a little more about your dreams like it was my call.........

this is quick but not quite painless, is it?

Perched on your arm, it's tacky and irrelevent- a permanent reminder that - oh christ! I'm studied up nightly............... I'll let you run into the streets before you buckle at your knees..........

All our secrets are tailored trouble, draped loose now around your hips.............we've got 26 days to work with............ only 26 days..........

so look more closely there might be something you'd like................

hmmm. I'm just updating to update.

I think I've changed a lot, over the summer. I dunno, I guess I just experienced a lot more, like love, real friends, and life that just totally shifted my entire outlook on everything.

I used to let everyone treat me like total shit all the time, and I never did anything. Now I realize I gave a lot of people a lot more credit then they really deserved. Some people were just total assholes, and I convinced myself that they had their reasons, or that I deserved it, that I still liked them. but in reality, I just had no idea what 'good' really was, and how wonderful it could make you feel.

I also used to act all pretentious and shit, like I was so deprived- I never let myself do anything that could bring me joy, like hugs, or smiling, or laughter. I was making myself something I was, almost martyrish, I liked that sort of romantic idea. Now, I let myself touch people, laugh, and generally be the gamboling idiot that I am. I'm weird, I know it, I love it. I can make people laugh, and that makes them happy, so I can be happy by making them happy. weird that that is what I always tried to do, and it was so simple.

I've found that nothing is better then being really, really very physically close to another person. Especially guys. Not in a sexual way, either. It's just very sensual, I guess.

but honestly- 'regular decorated emergency'-? only I could say something like that.

Only by being uncool can we truly begin to be cool. ~I am not stoned.

Love,
Wolfie

p.s.- I vow never to get high, unless I'm with the Pink Spiders. Or Brendon Urie. Or Adam Lazara.
that's where I draw the line.

p.p.s.- Panic! at the Disco show coming up on the 26th! Then on december 15th, I'm going to see The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Rise Against, and My Chemical Romance.
whoooooo.

p.p.p.s.- I hate people who don't listen to music because it's posour music- that's a stupid reason not to enjoy something.

that was the last one I promise. Now, I'm going to go delete all the old entries to my journal. That life is over.